Even though I'm sad about the break-up, I am beginning to actually see how better off I am because the relationship was so unhealthy for me - especially the last 4-5 months; I was miserable.
Every day looks brighter filled with a lots of reflection, and of course, moments of sadness. I am somewhat a little surprised that I am not steeped in misery feeling numb while every one of my senses ached horribly.
It's not that I didn't feel like that when G and I broke up because I did. I suffered badly the first 4 days and then when he left, it was a big relief although filled with lots of grief. The first night without having G here, it was really hard being alone after over a year of having him living with me. That was a doozey for sure to get through.
But it isn't so bad any more and it's been just one week since the break-up occurred. Surprisingly the familiarity of living alone has not been difficult for me to become accustomed to - I thought that would take a some time for me, but it hasn't. It's sorta weird for me to be healing so fast, but I ain't knockin' it - it's just different. I know it all means something great; I just have to figure out what it is, but all in good time ;-)
I feel stronger despite the sadness.
And, I can honestly say that although this break-up has caused me much sadness, I am not depressed about it.
I bid you g'nite for now.
Every day looks brighter filled with a lots of reflection, and of course, moments of sadness. I am somewhat a little surprised that I am not steeped in misery feeling numb while every one of my senses ached horribly.
It's not that I didn't feel like that when G and I broke up because I did. I suffered badly the first 4 days and then when he left, it was a big relief although filled with lots of grief. The first night without having G here, it was really hard being alone after over a year of having him living with me. That was a doozey for sure to get through.
But it isn't so bad any more and it's been just one week since the break-up occurred. Surprisingly the familiarity of living alone has not been difficult for me to become accustomed to - I thought that would take a some time for me, but it hasn't. It's sorta weird for me to be healing so fast, but I ain't knockin' it - it's just different. I know it all means something great; I just have to figure out what it is, but all in good time ;-)
I feel stronger despite the sadness.
And, I can honestly say that although this break-up has caused me much sadness, I am not depressed about it.
I bid you g'nite for now.
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