Random Stuff

Jodi had her baby yesterday! David came into the world weighing in at 8lbs, 7oz and 20 inches long :-)

Busier than heck at work, but enjoyed myself at our team building event; went on a river cruise and had dinner afterwards.

Eyes are healing.

So far no jury duty; just on call.

I'm doing some research on picking a place to visit during my sabbatical. Mom and I are planning on going somewhere together. I am looking forward to that. Right now I'm thinking maybe Sedona.

Other than the above, I've been kicking it around the apartment with Noodz and Spatz. I've been into crossword puzzles (they can be a bit addictive). I have a few books that I want to crack open and read, but I can't seem to get around to it.

I really need to start at the gym again.

But, what I really want to do is eat, eat, eat!

I'm on to Somethin'

Tonight I went out to dinner with my cousins Jane, Sance, and Jodi.

Jodi is pregnant and we're all waiting for her to have the baby - she's like takin' forever. I mean the babes was due 4/23. Sance flies back home on 4/30 and she's thinkin' the baby will be born after she leaves.

Well here's what I'm thinkin'....We ate Chinese food so maybe that will induce labor. Ha. Hey it's possible. I mean c'mon peeps, we're talkin' Chinese food here. It's been known to cause things such as keeping one up all night, you get hungry again just an hour after eating it! Then what about that thing they say that Chinese food has been known to cause nightmares. See? I'm tellin' ya I am on to something here! Yah.

Pursies

I love purses or handbags as they are more commonly known today. My favortite kind have always been over-sized purses. I have been known to spend up to $400 for one purse. I love to shop for purses at Nordstroms.

However, as I get older I find that my taste in purses are not as expensive, although I will not buy a cheap purse. I just bought a purse for about $70 and it's a small one. I thought I'd give it a try because carrying a big leather purse is starting to wear on my shoulders. Yes I realize it ain't so much the purse as it is my age. But hey if anything I can adapt and I may complain and moan about the foibles of growing older but really it isn't so bad. Not only do I feel my body gettin' older, but my mind is growin' wiser and it's like Christmas lights blinking off and on in my brain (little light bulbs - bink!). The awareness of my wisdoms are quite keen at times if not downright joyous.

Don't I read sappy? But it's so very true. I'm tellin' ya it is.

Anyhow I took a picture of my old purse along with my new purse to show you the size comparison. And the lil guy is Spatz ;-)

Girls that Wear Glasses and other Kernyen News

Last Friday I went to a specialist of the cornea that my opthamologist referred me to and it would seem that my eyes need a break from wearing contact lens for about 2 months (maybe more). The ulcer on my right eye is healing, but my corneas have some wear and tear on them from wearing contact lenses too much.

So now I am wearing my glasses full time and I can't wear makeup until my ulcer heals completely.

I was never one of those girls that did the natural look so I am feeling a little plain without my makeup (okay a lot plain).

In other Kernyen news, I spent the day with mom, Mari and Arron. Mom fixed this sea food dish that was spectacular! And the girls brought over a banana cream pie and a peach pie - very delicious.

Tomorrow another week begins. My boss is out for a week on vacation - yay! But I have a two-day face-to-face (FTF) meeting, but other than that it should be an easy week. It's the following week that will be pretty full; I have my admin team FTF followed by my boss's 2-day FTF staff meeting. Then we have a quarterly event (team building). However, I may not get to attend any of it if I have to go to court for jury duty.

Lord I can't wait for my sabbatical!

Stuff

I went to the eye doctor today and she referred me to a specialist because the ulcer on my eye isn't healing fast enough so she wants a second opinion. So tomorrow I have an appointment to see an eye specialist (cornea). I am a little nervous about the whole thing, not knowing what the diagnosis will be.

House Update: I did not get the last house I put a bid on; too many bids and with my limited budget I could not compete. So another house lost to me. I am thinking of giving up on the hunt for a few months and go back at it while I'm on my sabbatical. It will allow me some time to save more money.

Tomorrow I took the day off. I will be spending the day with mom, who will be going to the eye specialist with me + she will be going with me to the lab where I will need to take some tests (a regular thing I do for my diabetes).

Well that is all I have for now - later gator ;o)

Three's a Charm...

...or so the saying goes. I bid on my third house today. Cosmetically it needs a lot of work and a couple of other fix-it stuff, but I can do it. I have family that is willing to help me :-) But I am thinking do I really want this house? I am a little nervous about it. With my budget the only houses that I can afford are those that need fixing so I have to stop being so darned picky; otherwise I'll never buy myself a house. Mari and mom are both telling me to wait, but I've been waiting so long. And I ain't getting any younger.

I should just quit worrying about it (I am such a worrier at times) - I don't even have the house yet!

On another note, I took Noodles to the vet today. She is healthy as ever and such a good cat. She is always good at the vet's.

Tomorrow I go to the eye doctor for a check-up on the ulcer on my right eye. At least it is healing!

This Friday, me, Mari, Arron, Jane, Sance, and Jodi are going out to dinner in celebration of mine and Mari's birthdays! I can't wait :-)

Thanks for reading -xo

House Hunting and the Blues

Lost the house that I bidded on, but will be going out tomorrow during my lunch hour to look at a couple more. This house hunting stuff is becoming a pain. That is the 2nd house that I bidded on. My cousin said don't get discouraged; your house is out there.

But where it is?

Been feeling blue today about G - I know why. I did something dumb. I sent my friends an e-mail letting them all know that I will be closing down my Yahoo e-mail account and that they could reach me on my Hotmail account - I included G in that e-mail and now regret it because of course I wished he would have replied to it, but he hasn't so I am going upside down over that.

I swear why did I do that? DANG!

Well now I will just have to get over this and quit causing myself unwarranted anguish. It's just not worth it.

Now hopefully I will remember this if I get another stoopit idea in my head.

Sunday, Sunday

Looked at a few houses today and found one that I liked so I'll be submitting an offer. I hope I get the house. It's just perfect for me and my kitties.

I had a nice visit with mom. We talked about all kinds of things today. I really enjoyed my visit.

I'm really tired today because I didn't sleep that well last night. Spatz has this bad habit of waking me up at around 5:30 in the morning ;o) I was going to take a little snap today, but since I spent all day at mom's, I never got the chance. I might go to bed early tonight, but we'll see. I am a night owl and going to bed early is never easy for me.

It's getting hotter - summer is right around the corner. Mom talked about the possibility of her and I heading to Florida to visit Kim when my sabbatical rolls around. I am not sure I want to go, but we'll see - a lot can happen between now and September.

Adieu for now -xo

The Adventure of Fatbird Begins

Hallo my peepz - Today I went out with the woman to Jodi's baby shower and had a wonderful time! You can see me here:

Photo Journal of Fatbird

-xo

The Weekend Begins

It is going to be about 80 degrees today and I will be headed to the local park to attend my cousin's baby shower. I'm looking forward to it. I will be taking Fatbird with me :-)

Yesterday I went to see Laura and we had a good session. I felt lots better afterwawrds. Then I went to Nia and got my hair cut. I feel great!

The house hunting is still underway, but I must tell you it's a tad discouraging because I can almost be guaranteed that any offer I put on a house will have anywhere from 3-7 offers on it. I already lost a house :-( Both my mortgage gal and realtor told me that just within the past month the market has changed. There's a lot of investors out there that are literally buying up these homes and leaving homebuyers like me in the dust! Son-of-a!! What-the!!).

But I will continue to forge on because I am ready to get into my own house now.

Pretty Cool

Just when you think your life is settled and it’s all that, along comes someone that makes you feel special. You feel this is it; this is the guy that I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. But things go wrong and your hope for the future with him dies before your eyes. You weep and the pain seems like it will never go away.

What now? You go on, heal and pretty soon the haze of pain slowly subsides and you start to come to the realization that being alone is pretty cool.

I vaguely remember that cool feeling; I'm just not quite there yet.

Fatbird

Hallo - I’m Fatbird. I live with a woman that wears her hair funny (she needs a haircut). She likes to read stuff like how to get over a broken heart in 30 days, the Friday Night Knitting Club, the Secret, and all these other books. She has two furry kids that are okay but that damned black and white cat (I think his name is Spatz) keeps knocking me off the @*(%* desk! I’m going to kick his butt one day (just as soon as I lose some weight so that I can move my feeties out from under my belly).

I like to do nothing but look around the woman’s office. It’s not a bad place to hang out if you’re a fat bird. She keeps the place real clean and sure has a lot of books, ton of knick-knacks and lots of pictures on the walls. And she has four clocks showing different time zones (i don't know what's going on there).

My life, while content, could use some adventure. So I asked the woman if she can take me out and show me around. She agreed and even said she would take photos of my little adventures, kinda like a photo journal.

So all I can say is this little fat body is quivering with joy right now at that prospect.

Stay tuned :-)

The Tid

Today was a good day, got a lot done at work. Mari and I hung out for lunch and dinner tonight. I realized that I don't know my kid that well. I saw her through different eyes tonight and was very proud at what I saw. My kid is non-judgmental and I never really noticed that before.

Mari and I don't hang out much and we have always been in two different worlds. But lately we have been hangin' out and I really enjoy my time with her. I appreciate her more and don't just see her as a kid with a 'tude.

It's hard to explain, but to put it in a nutshell, my kid aka 'the tid' makes a fine adult. Sometimes I feel like I am the kid and she's the mom.

When did that happen?

Life in the Fast Lane (Not)

Today looks like it's going to be a beautiful day; the sun is out and it's not too hot or too cold. And there is a slight wind.

A lot has been going on lately. I qualified to buy a house, which is pretty exciting albeit a little scary. My cousin has been going with me to look at a few. Hopefully I will be in a house soon. I have been living in my apartment now for almost 10 years. I think that's a bit much, but I had told myself that I was never going to move out of this apartment unless I found a house.

I was summoned for Jury Duty at the end of this month so I have that to look forward to (I'm sure you can imagine just how thrilled I am).

G and I were in contact for awhile playing the online LOTR game together. It was nice because we were able to talk over the microphone that the game offers its players. For me it was bittersweet because although it was great to be with him in the game, I was actually in limbo wanting to be back with him, but knowing it wasn't the best thing just as I knew it wasn't the best thing for me to be in contact with him. And sure enough it didn't too long for me to realize that it was way too soon for us to be friends. G has a lot of anger and resentment toward me and the relationship while I was carrying false hopes and dreams about him and the relationship. As you can imagine this does not bode well for emotional health/healing. So I made the difficult decision to quit the game. I told him we couldn't be friends - not now, that I need to move on and start healing properly and quit draggin' stuff out.

My life has been off-kilter for quite some time now - even before G and I were together - the relationship ended up just becoming another liability adding to the stress/disarray that my life was in. Some believe that all things happen for a reason. For me, the break-up, while painful, is a good thing because it has motivated me to step back and look at the other parts of my life, which I have been neglecting for so long - especially during the time that I was with G. I put all my energies toward him and the relationship. It consumed me. I have come to realize that the relationship/break-up is just one part of my life - I have other parts that I need to give my attention to. Like my job. It has been a source of stress for me for quite some time now and I really need to have a deep heartfelt look at how I am going to go about alleviating this stress instead of just whining about it.

I need to also do a deep spirtual refresh because that has been hanging over me for a long time. I have had a lot going through my head for a few years now and I need to start focusing more on evaluating my values, qualities and all the other stuff that goes with spirtual growth.

I have put off so much stuff that it all finally came crashing down.