Well for the past couple of months or so, I have been dating. Yes, for those out there that know me, you can stop the pretense act of fainting (dweebs!).
I'm dating because I have decided to take action and go after what I want - a long term committed relationship. Someone that I can share my life with wholly and completely. You know how it goes; all those wonderful things that make being a couple fun, passionate, happy, and sexy.
So that is why I am dating. Have I met anyone special? Yes I have, but we're more like friends; I view him as my mentor within the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue. To me he is sexy, intelligent with a great sense of humor, and we get along great. But as life would have it right now, he doesn't want what I want out of a relationship. Although he wants a long term relationship, it is not the same kind I want. His idea of a LTR is more along the lines of being casual/platonic. Even if we don't share a 'traditional' romantic relationship, we do share a special friendship, have the trust, the mutual respect, and the intimacy of sexual exploration. In a sense we are committed, but on a different level (this is difficult to explain so I won't even attempt it). He knows I date because he can't provide me with what I truly want. In fact, he has encouraged me to date. And because he tends to be protective, he has asked me to keep him updated as to whom I date and he always asks how everything went, etc. I might add that he finds my dating adventures somewhat amusing (geez). So as you can read, our relationship is a bit different, but some would understand it - it is part of the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue :-) Some would call him my dominant and I guess in a way he is.
From time to time my kid has always bugged me to get out and date. And of course the minute that I do, she is my fiercest critic, kind of works on my last nerve, if you get my drift. But I know she does it because she loves me.
This is very new to me; having a casual relationship and dating a lot. I feel such the late bloomer. Here I am 48 years old dating like I should have done when I was in my 20's. I always did do things ass-backwards.
Geez.
It is an adventure of sorts and yes I have some stories that I could share. But really, dating is becoming more of a chore because I can't seem to find the guy that makes my world spin :-) Well I did find him, but like I said, we don't want the same things out of a relationship.
Curses.
So that's where I am now in my life. Still hard at work, been back at the gym for about 2 months now, in a casual relationship, dating, learning, and on my way to living the sort of lifestyle that I have always wanted to live.
So there.
Neener.
I'm dating because I have decided to take action and go after what I want - a long term committed relationship. Someone that I can share my life with wholly and completely. You know how it goes; all those wonderful things that make being a couple fun, passionate, happy, and sexy.
So that is why I am dating. Have I met anyone special? Yes I have, but we're more like friends; I view him as my mentor within the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue. To me he is sexy, intelligent with a great sense of humor, and we get along great. But as life would have it right now, he doesn't want what I want out of a relationship. Although he wants a long term relationship, it is not the same kind I want. His idea of a LTR is more along the lines of being casual/platonic. Even if we don't share a 'traditional' romantic relationship, we do share a special friendship, have the trust, the mutual respect, and the intimacy of sexual exploration. In a sense we are committed, but on a different level (this is difficult to explain so I won't even attempt it). He knows I date because he can't provide me with what I truly want. In fact, he has encouraged me to date. And because he tends to be protective, he has asked me to keep him updated as to whom I date and he always asks how everything went, etc. I might add that he finds my dating adventures somewhat amusing (geez). So as you can read, our relationship is a bit different, but some would understand it - it is part of the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue :-) Some would call him my dominant and I guess in a way he is.
From time to time my kid has always bugged me to get out and date. And of course the minute that I do, she is my fiercest critic, kind of works on my last nerve, if you get my drift. But I know she does it because she loves me.
This is very new to me; having a casual relationship and dating a lot. I feel such the late bloomer. Here I am 48 years old dating like I should have done when I was in my 20's. I always did do things ass-backwards.
Geez.
It is an adventure of sorts and yes I have some stories that I could share. But really, dating is becoming more of a chore because I can't seem to find the guy that makes my world spin :-) Well I did find him, but like I said, we don't want the same things out of a relationship.
Curses.
So that's where I am now in my life. Still hard at work, been back at the gym for about 2 months now, in a casual relationship, dating, learning, and on my way to living the sort of lifestyle that I have always wanted to live.
So there.
Neener.
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