Life in the Date Lane

Well for the past couple of months or so, I have been dating. Yes, for those out there that know me, you can stop the pretense act of fainting (dweebs!).

I'm dating because I have decided to take action and go after what I want - a long term committed relationship. Someone that I can share my life with wholly and completely. You know how it goes; all those wonderful things that make being a couple fun, passionate, happy, and sexy.

So that is why I am dating. Have I met anyone special? Yes I have, but we're more like friends; I view him as my mentor within the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue. To me he is sexy, intelligent with a great sense of humor, and we get along great. But as life would have it right now, he doesn't want what I want out of a relationship. Although he wants a long term relationship, it is not the same kind I want. His idea of a LTR is more along the lines of being casual/platonic. Even if we don't share a 'traditional' romantic relationship, we do share a special friendship, have the trust, the mutual respect, and the intimacy of sexual exploration. In a sense we are committed, but on a different level (this is difficult to explain so I won't even attempt it). He knows I date because he can't provide me with what I truly want. In fact, he has encouraged me to date. And because he tends to be protective, he has asked me to keep him updated as to whom I date and he always asks how everything went, etc. I might add that he finds my dating adventures somewhat amusing (geez). So as you can read, our relationship is a bit different, but some would understand it - it is part of the lifestyle that I have chosen to pursue :-) Some would call him my dominant and I guess in a way he is.

From time to time my kid has always bugged me to get out and date. And of course the minute that I do, she is my fiercest critic, kind of works on my last nerve, if you get my drift. But I know she does it because she loves me.

This is very new to me; having a casual relationship and dating a lot. I feel such the late bloomer. Here I am 48 years old dating like I should have done when I was in my 20's. I always did do things ass-backwards.

Geez.

It is an adventure of sorts and yes I have some stories that I could share. But really, dating is becoming more of a chore because I can't seem to find the guy that makes my world spin :-) Well I did find him, but like I said, we don't want the same things out of a relationship.

Curses.

So that's where I am now in my life. Still hard at work, been back at the gym for about 2 months now, in a casual relationship, dating, learning, and on my way to living the sort of lifestyle that I have always wanted to live.

So there.

Neener.

Happy Birthday Meerie

The day after Christmas my daughter (Mari), mom, and me went to my daughter's and her partner's home so that Mari could feed their dogs and cats. Their front door lock was broken so Mari had to climb over the fence to get to the back door. This was no easy feat. And me, well I didn't even try because I had a big sore on my leg and there was no way I was going to climb over a fence. After about 30 minutes of trying to get into the house which involved Mari trying to climb the fence twice, stepping on dog poop in the process, her and I trying to lift the garage door, all of us scoping out other areas of the fence, we finally got into the house.

How, you ask?

My 71-year old mother climbed over the fence and let us in.

Yeah you read what I wrote. Meerie hopped over the fence.

Mari turned to me and said, "How did she do that?"

Oh and this was on mom's birthday. Happy Birthday Meerie!!

Reflectionettes

There are a lot of times that I have these deep thoughts that seem to sear me straight to the heart. I look back on my life and I can't help but think it is true; as I get older, what was once important to me is now nothing but a shadow. It's the simple things in my life that make me smile and give me contentment. I still experience heartache because I'm a mom, daughter, sister, aunt, and everything else where love resides deeply and unabiding.

My life is good and I'm learning to enjoy what I have instead of yearning for what I don't have. Although something still bugs me; I still wish for a companion in life and out of all that is true with me, this has to be the most difficult thing for me to attain because I make it so difficult.

"Stop it!" Maybe if I keep telling myself consistently, I will stop thinking like this. It's in da brain!

I am grateful for my family. And no matter how dysfunctional we are, they're mine and I love them no matter what.

Ain't love grand?

Yes. Yes, it is.

Here's Johnny

Hi there - I thought I'd share a recent picture of my nephew, Johnny.

How's Tricks?

How are things with everyone? Good I hope.

Good news - my sabbatical is less than three weeks away! I'm so looking forward to not having to go to work for two months (with pay)!

I've been busy with my nephew Johnny and with my new furry kid Toula. Last weekend mom, my brother, his wife, Johnny, and I went to the State Fair. We had a really good time. Toula is such a wonderful little sweetie; it's hard to imagine my life without her in it.

Recently I made an investment in a carpet cleaner (Bissel) and I tried it out for the first time today. It worked really well. So I'm pretty satisfied with my purchase.

I know that I should get into a house; it's the right thing to do because really I've grown out of the apartment, right along with Noodles, Spatz, and Toula (my furry kids would love a bigger place to live in). But the thought of house hunting is a drag. It's not fun. I'm tired of making offers that never get accepted. I know that I will find my house when the time is right for me (this is me giving myself a pep talk; because really I will live in this apartment forever -ha).

Okay really I won't - sometimes I just feel would it be so bad if I did??

Anyhow enough about me. How are things witchu?

Johnny

I was in Salinas this weekend meeting my nephew Johnny for the first time. I'm smitten; I'm in deep smit. I'm not sure he is a Teddy Wong to me any more. I'm still pondering a nickname for the little guy ;-)

Introducing my Nephew John Masaru



-xo

Teddy Wong

My brother and his wife had their first baby. Little John Masaru was born June 16th coming into this world early (due date: July 2nd) at 6 lbs and 20 inches. He has been named after Jennifer's dad and our dad.

I've already nicknamed him Teddy Wong. Love handles is what my family specializes in the most. I haven't met my new nephew yet, but even before he was born I already knew he would be Teddy Wong to me. Mom already calls him that and it's okay with my brother and his wife. Mom said Teddy Wong is a cutie taking after my brother :-)

My brother asked: "When's he going to stop looking like an old man?"

Yesterday mom and I went to Dillard's where I splurged and got Teddy Wong three outfits. Of course one reads "I love my auntie."

Mom took ton of photos but left her camera at my brother's (good goin' mom!). My brother mailed them out to her and as soon as she gets them, I will be posting some photos of Teddy Wong.

I'm confident you will fall in love.

Don't Cry for Me Argentina

I know it's been around awhile, but I've just discovered it and I can't seem to stop listening to the song.

'sup?

Not much goin' on over here except the kid and I went and saw the Broadway version of The Phantom of the Opera here in Sac Town! I couldn't get over how brilliant the costumes were; so bright and colorful. And the sets were out of this world; the designs were so very lavish and clever. The cast was phenomenal!

Before we went to the opera, we went out to Zocalo's for dinner, which was delicious.

What a grand way to spend a Saturday night. I really enjoyed myself. The kid and I met up with my cuzzy and her family at the opera, which was a treat in itself :-)

Other than that, things have been pretty much steady and normal. I am still doing research on where I want to go on my sabbatical with mom. We're thinking Vegas now because of the what happens in Vegas stays there - ha. I'm kidding. But seriously...

Good news: The ulcer on my right eye is completely gone! Yay! I went to the eye doctor today. Next appointment is to the dermatologist to see about getting rid of this acne on my face - it's starting to really bother me!

I went to the health peeps where I work and will hear from them in five days to meet with a health consultant. The kid did the same thing and was blubbering about having her blood taken (she's a dweeb).

Hey Babycakes, I got your message, but when I try to visit your site, I get something really weird - can you re-send me the link to your site please? Thanks (I don't want you to think I'm ignorin' ya's).

Well that's it for now peeps.

Take it ease -xo

Tonight

My kid and her friend Brook were over tonight for dinner. I fixed fried chicken and some steaks, steamed rice and corn.

I finished reading A Field of Darkness by Cornelia Read. It is her first published novel; a mystery. I would recommend the book if you enjoy reading mystery. It was a little slow at first, but picks up.

I have to head into work this Sunday (yay).

Yeah right.

Even thought my sabbatical doesn't begin until Sep 15th, I'm already on it, but I have to act like I'm not by going through the motions of working really hard as is my normal way; however, I'm sure I'm failing as each day passes. I'm so la-dee-da about work it isn't even funny although I'm laughing hard inside.

Okay not that hard, it's more like snickering.

I went and bought the ingredients to make tabouleh - I am looking forward to it. Then after that, I want to try my hand at making gazpacho soup - I've always wanted to try it. And it doesn't hurt that these two dishes are healthy. After all we all know what a health nut I truly am.

Riggghhtt.