Reflectionettes

There are a lot of times that I have these deep thoughts that seem to sear me straight to the heart. I look back on my life and I can't help but think it is true; as I get older, what was once important to me is now nothing but a shadow. It's the simple things in my life that make me smile and give me contentment. I still experience heartache because I'm a mom, daughter, sister, aunt, and everything else where love resides deeply and unabiding.

My life is good and I'm learning to enjoy what I have instead of yearning for what I don't have. Although something still bugs me; I still wish for a companion in life and out of all that is true with me, this has to be the most difficult thing for me to attain because I make it so difficult.

"Stop it!" Maybe if I keep telling myself consistently, I will stop thinking like this. It's in da brain!

I am grateful for my family. And no matter how dysfunctional we are, they're mine and I love them no matter what.

Ain't love grand?

Yes. Yes, it is.

'sup?

Not much goin' on over here except the kid and I went and saw the Broadway version of The Phantom of the Opera here in Sac Town! I couldn't get over how brilliant the costumes were; so bright and colorful. And the sets were out of this world; the designs were so very lavish and clever. The cast was phenomenal!

Before we went to the opera, we went out to Zocalo's for dinner, which was delicious.

What a grand way to spend a Saturday night. I really enjoyed myself. The kid and I met up with my cuzzy and her family at the opera, which was a treat in itself :-)

Other than that, things have been pretty much steady and normal. I am still doing research on where I want to go on my sabbatical with mom. We're thinking Vegas now because of the what happens in Vegas stays there - ha. I'm kidding. But seriously...

Good news: The ulcer on my right eye is completely gone! Yay! I went to the eye doctor today. Next appointment is to the dermatologist to see about getting rid of this acne on my face - it's starting to really bother me!

I went to the health peeps where I work and will hear from them in five days to meet with a health consultant. The kid did the same thing and was blubbering about having her blood taken (she's a dweeb).

Hey Babycakes, I got your message, but when I try to visit your site, I get something really weird - can you re-send me the link to your site please? Thanks (I don't want you to think I'm ignorin' ya's).

Well that's it for now peeps.

Take it ease -xo

Tonight

My kid and her friend Brook were over tonight for dinner. I fixed fried chicken and some steaks, steamed rice and corn.

I finished reading A Field of Darkness by Cornelia Read. It is her first published novel; a mystery. I would recommend the book if you enjoy reading mystery. It was a little slow at first, but picks up.

I have to head into work this Sunday (yay).

Yeah right.

Even thought my sabbatical doesn't begin until Sep 15th, I'm already on it, but I have to act like I'm not by going through the motions of working really hard as is my normal way; however, I'm sure I'm failing as each day passes. I'm so la-dee-da about work it isn't even funny although I'm laughing hard inside.

Okay not that hard, it's more like snickering.

I went and bought the ingredients to make tabouleh - I am looking forward to it. Then after that, I want to try my hand at making gazpacho soup - I've always wanted to try it. And it doesn't hurt that these two dishes are healthy. After all we all know what a health nut I truly am.

Riggghhtt.

Random Stuff

Jodi had her baby yesterday! David came into the world weighing in at 8lbs, 7oz and 20 inches long :-)

Busier than heck at work, but enjoyed myself at our team building event; went on a river cruise and had dinner afterwards.

Eyes are healing.

So far no jury duty; just on call.

I'm doing some research on picking a place to visit during my sabbatical. Mom and I are planning on going somewhere together. I am looking forward to that. Right now I'm thinking maybe Sedona.

Other than the above, I've been kicking it around the apartment with Noodz and Spatz. I've been into crossword puzzles (they can be a bit addictive). I have a few books that I want to crack open and read, but I can't seem to get around to it.

I really need to start at the gym again.

But, what I really want to do is eat, eat, eat!

Pursies

I love purses or handbags as they are more commonly known today. My favortite kind have always been over-sized purses. I have been known to spend up to $400 for one purse. I love to shop for purses at Nordstroms.

However, as I get older I find that my taste in purses are not as expensive, although I will not buy a cheap purse. I just bought a purse for about $70 and it's a small one. I thought I'd give it a try because carrying a big leather purse is starting to wear on my shoulders. Yes I realize it ain't so much the purse as it is my age. But hey if anything I can adapt and I may complain and moan about the foibles of growing older but really it isn't so bad. Not only do I feel my body gettin' older, but my mind is growin' wiser and it's like Christmas lights blinking off and on in my brain (little light bulbs - bink!). The awareness of my wisdoms are quite keen at times if not downright joyous.

Don't I read sappy? But it's so very true. I'm tellin' ya it is.

Anyhow I took a picture of my old purse along with my new purse to show you the size comparison. And the lil guy is Spatz ;-)

Sunday, Sunday

Looked at a few houses today and found one that I liked so I'll be submitting an offer. I hope I get the house. It's just perfect for me and my kitties.

I had a nice visit with mom. We talked about all kinds of things today. I really enjoyed my visit.

I'm really tired today because I didn't sleep that well last night. Spatz has this bad habit of waking me up at around 5:30 in the morning ;o) I was going to take a little snap today, but since I spent all day at mom's, I never got the chance. I might go to bed early tonight, but we'll see. I am a night owl and going to bed early is never easy for me.

It's getting hotter - summer is right around the corner. Mom talked about the possibility of her and I heading to Florida to visit Kim when my sabbatical rolls around. I am not sure I want to go, but we'll see - a lot can happen between now and September.

Adieu for now -xo

The Weekend Begins

It is going to be about 80 degrees today and I will be headed to the local park to attend my cousin's baby shower. I'm looking forward to it. I will be taking Fatbird with me :-)

Yesterday I went to see Laura and we had a good session. I felt lots better afterwawrds. Then I went to Nia and got my hair cut. I feel great!

The house hunting is still underway, but I must tell you it's a tad discouraging because I can almost be guaranteed that any offer I put on a house will have anywhere from 3-7 offers on it. I already lost a house :-( Both my mortgage gal and realtor told me that just within the past month the market has changed. There's a lot of investors out there that are literally buying up these homes and leaving homebuyers like me in the dust! Son-of-a!! What-the!!).

But I will continue to forge on because I am ready to get into my own house now.

Life in the Fast Lane (Not)

Today looks like it's going to be a beautiful day; the sun is out and it's not too hot or too cold. And there is a slight wind.

A lot has been going on lately. I qualified to buy a house, which is pretty exciting albeit a little scary. My cousin has been going with me to look at a few. Hopefully I will be in a house soon. I have been living in my apartment now for almost 10 years. I think that's a bit much, but I had told myself that I was never going to move out of this apartment unless I found a house.

I was summoned for Jury Duty at the end of this month so I have that to look forward to (I'm sure you can imagine just how thrilled I am).

G and I were in contact for awhile playing the online LOTR game together. It was nice because we were able to talk over the microphone that the game offers its players. For me it was bittersweet because although it was great to be with him in the game, I was actually in limbo wanting to be back with him, but knowing it wasn't the best thing just as I knew it wasn't the best thing for me to be in contact with him. And sure enough it didn't too long for me to realize that it was way too soon for us to be friends. G has a lot of anger and resentment toward me and the relationship while I was carrying false hopes and dreams about him and the relationship. As you can imagine this does not bode well for emotional health/healing. So I made the difficult decision to quit the game. I told him we couldn't be friends - not now, that I need to move on and start healing properly and quit draggin' stuff out.

My life has been off-kilter for quite some time now - even before G and I were together - the relationship ended up just becoming another liability adding to the stress/disarray that my life was in. Some believe that all things happen for a reason. For me, the break-up, while painful, is a good thing because it has motivated me to step back and look at the other parts of my life, which I have been neglecting for so long - especially during the time that I was with G. I put all my energies toward him and the relationship. It consumed me. I have come to realize that the relationship/break-up is just one part of my life - I have other parts that I need to give my attention to. Like my job. It has been a source of stress for me for quite some time now and I really need to have a deep heartfelt look at how I am going to go about alleviating this stress instead of just whining about it.

I need to also do a deep spirtual refresh because that has been hanging over me for a long time. I have had a lot going through my head for a few years now and I need to start focusing more on evaluating my values, qualities and all the other stuff that goes with spirtual growth.

I have put off so much stuff that it all finally came crashing down.

When it Rains, it Pours...

Today I have been sick. I suspect I have the flu because it is going around at work.

Mari came over today which is always nice. We hung out and chatted. She brought over Chinese style spareribs. They were delicious, but I ate very little.

Thank goodness I get to work from home the entire week; between my eye and my upset stomach, I couldn't do anything at work.

I watched a bunch of DVD's that I rented for this weekend. I saw "I am Legend," which was a pretty good movie. I just love Will Smith - he is one of my favortite actors.

It's late and I'm tired since I didn't get much sleep last night due to the weird stuff going on with my stomach. I've been up since 2am. So I need to hit it and get my rest in.

Nite-nite.

Questions

So I'm wondering...when Noodles goes into her cat box, does she scrunch her little paw-toes so that they hold about a bucket full of litter? I mean the stuff is everywhere!

Does anyone else think Mike Rowe is cute?

Do you have a favorite character on Futurama?

Whose your daddy?

L E N T

It's Lent time and you know what that means?

I ain't givin' up a damned thing!

-the end-